From the time we find out we are pregnant, we begin creating the most comfortable environment possible for this human entering the world, our world. We start with a room or a section of a room and find the coziest spot for a crib with the softest sheets and coziest blankets. We swaddle them just right and do everything we feel necessary to protect them, to make them comfortable. We do this because we love them, and we want to give them the best life possible.
I have started preparing my momma heart slowly for Daisy to begin school in a little over a year. I have thought about all of the situations she may experience, things she may see that we don’t see and words she will hear. Many of us can become burdened and worried about how we will protect their innocent hearts from the world, how we will keep them comfortable. What we can do to keep them in our boxes away from the scary world.
My prayer is that when she sees someone that looks different than we do, that she would be accepting. My prayer is that when she sees a situation or someone acting wrong according to the way we live, that she would extend grace. I am not here to just teach my kids to smile and say hello to the older lady at Walmart or the homeless man outside the gas station we walk into and move on. I am here to to teach them the love of Jesus, to be the light of Jesus, and to stop and have a conversation with that woman because it may be the only conversation she has with someone all day. To buy that man a sandwich and a water and let him know Jesus loves him when we leave.
From the time we leave our parents home into adulthood, we work hard to create a comfortable life. We work hard in college, building a business or climbing up a company ladder. This really has nothing to do with our kids though, what about us. This post was inspired by a convicting conversation I had with the Lord about a month ago, and I started writing this after talking with him. I was praying and seeking peace and direction for a situation in our life, and I told him I am willing, I am ready and I trust you to take care of this. He said, you have created these boundaries around what I have called you to do to make sure it is so comfortable for you, do you really trust me? Trust you, Lord? Of course I trust you! We always pray for your will for our family, we give our time, talents and treasure to you Lord. Although this question was going much deeper than these surface level things we give to him. I needed to deal with walls I put around my heart.
Its okay to feel uncomfortable. It’s what we learn in times of discomfort that matters. Are we uncomfortable because someone doesn’t look the way we would prefer them to? They don’t smell the way we prefer them to? They are not a part of our “crowd”? I know many times as parents it’s even, well their kids have some rough edges and it’s just really hard for our kids to play together. I have thought these things and felt this way. We are human. Although our model, the perfect human never guessed for a second what his friends..his followers..would think of him talking to the prostitute.
What if our neighbors that look a little scary, and their house seems a mess with a junky yard work from sun up to sun down just to make their house payment and have no margin in their lives to take care of their yard? I lived in my house for 6 months before I ever met my next door neighbor. I thought I knew her from the “outside.” She sat in our front yard with us and explained she was a retired widow that cares for her grown disabled son. In that moment my heart sank, why had I not knocked on her door and introduced myself ? Why had I CARED what the outside looked like.
It’s time to stop focusing all of our attention on creating a perfect Christian life for the people in the four walls of our home and only helping our “group” of friends when they need it. We are learning what discipleship looks like from our Pastor, David Gadberry, this year at Summit Church. I have been praying differently, making our family schedule different and slowing down. I am asking the Lord to show me someone to minister to on a consistent basis, no matter how uncomfortable it is for me. For my precious children, or whatever it keeps me from doing in our “schedule.” The truth is nothing is more important than winning souls to Heaven. Comfort may take us to heaven, what matters is who do we care enough about to take with us.
Roxy and I have some heavy things on our heart to share with all of our followers, and we hope to reach even one single person. We want to share our struggles and trials. So just be ready for some real real from time to time. Of course, we want to bring in some style as well. I bought this oversized boyfriend tee from 79 Salt in Canyon, and I absolutely love it. When I first saw it, I thought that is not going to be flattering on me, but then I tried it on. I ended up loving it! Especially with distressed skinny jeans and peep toe booties. As always, I am wearing one of my Graf & Lantz bags! These earrings are so unique, and they are made by a local couple. Let me know if you have any questions about them. You can buy them at 79 Salt also. We hope you all have a fabulous weekend…and maybe God will bring you out of your comfort zone!